Beginning

There is only one first entry,
The first hello, the first handshake, new, and maybe a little shy.

All my life I have loved the moment before choosing,
The wide world of choice so vast it takes your breath away.

I will say “that, I want that” and sometimes the answer is yes,
And sometimes it is not.

The asking itself is a form of freedom, perhaps even privilege,
And I wonder if the greatest privilege of all is self definition.

All my life, once I was old enough to operate within the lines of personality,
I felt that making a choice, a start, a single pointed action
Eliminated other choices, the beginning of new things also the end, removing the open sense of possibility.

This blog will hopefully examine what it is to have a choice,
What it is to make a choice, to observe patterns that obfuscate choice
And, to explore out loud how we choose in the midst of opposing pulls.

So here this is, here I am. Feeling the colors, a dance of variation, and picking this one, for the beginning.